“…my pain, my torment, my frustration and anger…my joy – my love.”
-Reiner Ebert.
#1. This was my first oil painting done in early 2017…I had been teaching myself how to paint during the 6 months prior, by reading books and taking notes and by watching you-tube videos of painters that I admired……Although at this stage, it is clear that I need way more improvement in my technique…I was happy with the overall composition and encouraged to continue painting, by the way I had successfully implied the presence of clothing hanging over the chair, with the gesture of a few simple brushstrokes…It was at that moment I knew, that if I stuck with it, I could become an artist.
#2. My wife has awesome bendy elbows! – You really have to see them up close to fully appreciate them!…I’m happy with the outcome of my second oil painting. I was focusing on the accuracy of the drawing. It was a pretty ambitious task – However, I believe that the only way to improve quickly, is to always test yourself and accept a challenge! – Set your goals high! – Then that way, even if you only make it halfway there, you will still arrive at a very good level!……I don’t use any under drawings in my artwork – I simply put my brush to the canvas and start painting…..My goal is to train my eye the same way I trained myself not to use any packing-clamps to aid me in the packing of my parachute while B.A.S.E-jumping. – As it is with both pursuits, this will allow me to have more confidence and freedom in the future!
#3. I was trying to do something different here. After painting ‘Puppies’ – Which was quite a light and airy painting, I really wanted to see if I could be successful with a dim light source….At the time, all I had to use was Christmas tree lights. – I think it works…I can definitely see my wife’s eyes shining through!
#6. I wanted to try to use a limited pallet, so I thought this would be a good exercise…It was a quick sketch and fun to do!…I like the time-less quality – Although perhaps they didn’t have those type of bikinis back then??…..Anyway,…you get what I mean? – By the way…My wife’s puppies are the same size in real life! – It’s just the way the perspective is in the painting.
#15. Another quick study of my beautiful wife… I always love painting her!…When I fell in love with her for the first time, she was facing away from me – And softly humming a tune to herself…I remember standing there, silently watching for a while…From that moment on, I was captivated by her!
#21. Hey there ‘lil sis……This painting belongs to you!……Have I ever told you how beautiful I think you are!??….I wish I could have been there, growing up – To have been a proper brother for you!……I’m so very proud of everything you’ve accomplished with your life!…And you, being there for mum on your own. ……Y’know, we all make mistakes! – I know I do!…I’m the kind of man who blows up balloons until they burst!……Sometimes we pay dearly for them -Sometimes we don’t. ……Never forget!…You have two beautiful kids -Who need every bit of you!……Girl!-Stay in the fight!!!
#22. Well Fuck-a-doodle-do!……This painting took a long time to finish!….It’s amazing how much effort it takes to make a painting look like it took no effort at all!…..I started this painting of my cousins girl, Ughaan, in the second week of February…All was going well – And on day five I was already thinking I might be finished in a couple more days – I was happy about this because usually I finish a painting this size in nine days and that would mean I was getting quicker….I had completed the arms and the shirt and was working simultaneously on the denim jacket and face….But then out of no-where….I was standing in front of my easel, when suddenly and without warning, I collapsed on the floor! – Literally!!… I was completely and utterly fucked!!! ……That’s never happened to me before!!….I’ve worked physically hard, all my life and never been beat!….. But this was different… You see, since mid December 2021, until mid February 2022, I had painted for a total of 36 days and I was mentally drained. My brain just gave up! ……I couldn’t even manage to clean my brushes that day. It took me two months to recharge properly before I could even look in the direction of my easel again….I had to scrub out the work I already did on the jacket and face and start over. But, as it turns out – Being that fucked helped me get to the next level! – ‘Cos when I finally picked up my brushes again, – I still didn’t have enough energy to maintain the same concentration and focus I usually have……And this forced me to give less of a fuck!- Not that I wasn’t caring about my work!- I always strive for perfection when I paint….But this time I simply couldn’t!….So, I decided to just experiment and go with the flow….let it evolve by itself uninhibited…… As a result, my work became more expressive!……You can’t just hang out by the clit all day long!- Sometimes you just gotta take a deep breath, put your head down – Make that pointy shape with your tongue…Then stick it in as far as it can go!…And just see what happens!
#25. Ok- So I just had to paint this one!- I love the attitude and all the bling…It gives me something challenging to paint!…But fuck-me!…Again!!…Man!…Day one, all was going good…Got the shirt done…But then I couldn’t get to sleep that night- My mind was just going round-and-fucking-round all night long! – Finally, fell asleep around 4am…Then woke up at 9 to continue painting…This shit kept going on every night until I finished the painting…It was almost a full week of torture!…I’m absolutely fucked now!….Must have been that fucking weeeed I smoked last week!….I’m just glad it worked out!
#29. I want you meet Taahira. She’s my cousin……And she’s a really wonderful person!!…As beautiful on the inside as she is on the outside!!…I was lucky enough to spend a week with her last month, getting to know her better as she decided to come visit me before she went back to South Africa after spending a few months on modelling assignments in London, Amsterdam and Turkey…Geez!- she’s all grown up now!…It only seems like yesterday when she was a tiny little thing crawling all over my ex wife…Man!- Time sure does fly!- And yes!- I did feel fucking old hanging around with a 24 year old (Only because she kept on reminding me!)…But luckily she’s got a good head on her shoulders and is a thinker like me…So our conversations were very stimulating and by the end of the week I was relieved to feel much more assured that she will be safe and able to take care of herself as she ventures on her journey in life,- Jet-setting all over the world while pursuing her modelling career!…Taahira – I miss all my family! …Please give them all a big hug for me!!…And thanks so much for the visit!!…Hey! Always remember! – You came from the right stock! – And you’ve been brought up the right way!…And you’ve got everything it takes to actually make it in this world!!…I have complete and utter faith in you!! – You go get ’em girl!!!……Oh!- And remember what you promised me!! – You were going to find me a new wife!! … I’ll hold you to that!!….Now, O.K…So we agree that 24 is a bit young for me…But I think 27 is O.K…Practically 30 huh!…So, when you start hanging around 27 year old models…Come back for another visit!!… – Let me give you my numbers real quick….. No-one bigger than 89:64:101(cm)…And she’s gotta be adventurous in bed and at least as intelligent as you are O.K!.. Oh!!! – And she’s gotta be a real fucking woman as well!!! – I don’t want to have to deal with any ‘origami penises’ O.K!!…..Thanks cuzz!!
#30. This painting is for a friend I really care about. It’s my way of saying sorry. I can be a fucking dick sometimes!…When I get a boner…My dick gets so big…I trip myself up with it….I should cut the damn thing off!….Save me a lot of trouble. I painted this from a photo she took and sent me. I fell in love with it and knew it would make a great painting. I wanted her to know….That feeling you get inside sometimes….Well, hold on girl…There is something beyond nothingness!